Currently...

Thinking:
That I really need to start running again. It's been two weeks since I've gone and it's starting to get to me. Now that it's going to become colder and I'll most likely be on the treadmill, I want to get in as many outside runs as I can. Even though we live in a tiny subdivision that is basically a giant oval, I love running in our neighborhood. It's so peaceful being out there by myself, listening to podcasts (running to music bores me) and getting a chance to think by myself without the kids. I'm also kind of a creeper and I like to glance in the windows of my neighbors as I run by to see how they have their living rooms set up. I know, it sounds stalker-ish, but I don't stand outside glaring in like a weirdo, I promise. We have an awkwardly shaped living room and space is an issue so I'm curious how other people have their furniture set up. Now you all think I'm a loon.

Feeling:
Exhausted. This baby is keeping us up a lot lately and I'm starting to feel like my blood is half-coffee with all that I've been drinking to keep sane. I keep reminding myself that at some point he will be sleeping through the night, in his own room, and I will look back on this time and think how happy I am that we got through it. We did with the first one, right?

Wide.  Awake.

Watching:
Smallville and I've watched the first ep. of the US version of The Killing. I'm trying to do more during nap time (when I am able to put the babe down) or read instead of staring blankly at the TV, but during these exhausting days, all I want is to veg.

Reading:
The No-Cry Discipline Solution by Elizabeth Pantley. Her sleep books were invaluable to me during Jacob's sleep/nap issues and I've owned this book for awhile but just finally cracked it open. I like her approach to gentle discipline, and it's always good to refresh myself on ways to talk to Jacob that are actually productive. I can definitely be hard on him, I think I tend to have high expectations which is not entirely fair. Books like this help me to remember what he is developmentally capable of and where to focus my discipline. Excited: About celebrating another birthday next week. I'm admittedly kind of sad that Bennett is turning one, but also excited about what is to come. Some of my best days with Jacob were when he was learning to talk, and when I look at some of our videos of him at that age, I get super misty.

Wanting:
A vacation, to sleep for 12 hours, a shopping spree, bowl of ice cream the size of my head...same old, same old!

Eating:
The Mexican Green Goddess Salad from Gwyneth Paltrow's new cookbook. It is SO good and the dressing...THE DRESSING. I told Tim last night that if I were on death row, he would have to make sure to bring me a giant bowl of that salad with the dressing slathered all over it. Then I'd be good to go.

Loving:
The cool-ish weather, pumpkin on ALL THE THINGS, breakfast dates with my friends (and the hilarious group texts we have that fill up my phone), iTunes radio on ios7, thinking about Halloween, how lazy my cats get when the windows are open, light t-shirts over jeans, Jacob's new Toms, and Bennett wearing cardigans.

CARDIGAN

Happy weekend!